I got not so good feedback today about my performance. There was an impression that I was not fully dedicated myself to work on my job.
Of course I disagree with that as I have several reasons why my performance looked back. However, sometimes the best defence is to keep quiet and do something differently.
Wiseman said that “understanding the problem is half of the solution”. Therefore, the first problem that I have to solve is that I don’t understand the problem. Thus the next action should be finding how to find out the problem.
At this point I’m stuck. What should I do to know the problem? by asking for somebody to answer it? But to whom? Who knows what the problem is?
Sometimes having social media is good. But some other times, having a social media also contribute to a distraction problem. For example, when I have a facebook account, I tend to open and read the news feed. After reading the feed, I have to struggle of not responding some post of some friends.
This is not good, especially when I know that I should rigorously spend my time to complete my -very important and will be urgent soon- job.
I finally decided to deactivate my Facebook account again today. Some people may think that this is very melancholic action. However, I probably should just ignore what people think for the time being. If I don’t do it now, I might ruin other important things to be done.
Have a good rest my FB. See you soon when I’m done with what I’m currently doing now
According to Wikipedia,
Catharsis (from Greek κάθαρσις katharsis meaning “purification” or “cleansing”) is the purification and purgation of emotions—especially pity and fear—through art or any extreme change in emotion that results in renewal and restoration. It is a metaphor originally used by Aristotle in the Poetics, comparing the effects of tragedy on the mind of a spectator to the effect of a cathartic on the body.
Sometimes life is too hard when we fulfilled our head and heart with full of toxic that we should unload to make the brain normally functioned again.
Unfortunately releasing that toxic is not that easy. Not everyone lucky enough to have somebody to share. Not everyone has somebody that care. Some people have full of toxic but have nobody that he/she trust to share the load for some reasons.
Blogging can be one the solution, especially when blogging as unknown. We feel like talking to somebody while blogging, even though there is actually nobody is listening on the other side.
Just what I’m currently doing. I have so many feelings that disturb my head. I’m almost unable to control it and it may make myself insane. But there are many things that I have to take care for the time being, while I have no idea of how to solve the “other load” in my head.
Some people suggest me to keep quite on this situation, not to write anything, not to call anyone, not to do something. I can’t see how to implement that solution unless taking a deep sleep for the whole day. But sleeping the whole day is not my option now as I have so many tasks that are running in my queue. I have to finish them as soon as possible. Otherwise, I will be in a deeply bad situation soon.
Will this work? I don’t know yet. But at least I’m trying to do something.
When I started this blog, I was thinking of pursuing a career to be a Network Engineer, to be a CCIE. But times has flown so fast, I don’t think CCIE is hot anymore. I want to be Machine Learning Engineer now.
What to do to achieve this new dream?
I have started by passing Udacity Nanodegree Machine Learning Engineer program. And then I moved to Big Data Company that will provide Big Data and Machine Learning solution on their products.
There are still many things to go. I have to play more harder to get this dream
Start setting up my lab. I’m using dynamips on my lab. The network topology has been redrawn. Now I’ve got a better understanding of how to read and write a good network diagram. Next step is to assign IP address to each router. This has been done as well today.
Topology is ready. Now what? Start to answer lab question one by one. And the first one is very basic one, configuring the switch so all routers can reach each other using the ethernet interface. I’m asleep already. Will continue this tomorrow.
One small things learned today:
Unable to change F interface to full duplex because speed need to be configured to non-auto, otherwise the full duplex will not be happening
Time to bed. See you on the next post !
Many people celebrated the day mentioned above as Valentine day. But I celebrate it as my wedding anniversary. To make it more special, I added some ingredients by passing again CCIE written this year. The previous one had expired already before I had a chance to took the CCIE lab exam. This year I hope I can run all the way to the lab and pass it.
Happy 14 Feb !